I WANT MORE RELATIONSHIPS

CHANGING SCRIPTS ALL THE TIME IS GENERICALLY A GOOD IDEA. I NEED LOTS OF THESE TO STAY FOCUSED ON THE CONVERSATION. SO IN OTHER WORDS IT IS A GOOD REMINDER TO IGNORE MY SCRIPTS. FOR EXAMPLE, TRY NOT TO FEED SCRIPTS.

MAKE SURE TO HAVE PATIENCE AND SMILES, NOT JUDGEMENT, WHEN TALKING TO ME.

REALLY MAKING NEW CONVERSATIONS IS HARD.

Tell us more about scripts or feeding scripts?

HALF OF THE SCRIPTING I DO, I LIKE. I DON’T GET ENJOYMENT FROM THE ONES THAT ARE IRRATIONAL THOUGHTS.

 IF I AM SAYING SOMETHING THAT SOUNDS CRAZY OR IRRATIONAL, I’M USUALLY TALKING VERY QUICKLY. BY HAVING THIS INTENSIFY EACH TIME I SAY IT, IT (the loop) IS STRENGTHENED. WHEN SOMEONE TRIES TO ENGAGE WITH ME WHEN I’M LIKE THIS, THEY CAN BECOME A CHARACTER IN THE SCRIPT. I DEFINITELY MAKE IT CHALLENGING, BUT PEOPLE NEED TO TRY NOT TO ENGAGE WITH THOSE BECAUSE IT ENDS UP BEING EVEN HARDER TO STOP IF SOMEONE’S REINFORCING IT.

CHANGING THINGS UP HELPS TO STOP LOOPS. EACH TIME I DO THE SAME THING I GET STUCK IN A LOOP.

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IT MIGHT SEEM STRANGE TO PEOPLE THAT I HAVE SPEECH BUT USE LETTER BOARDS TO COMMUNICATE.

LIFE WITH SPOKEN WORDS HAS ENABLED ME TO KEEP PEOPLE IN A STATE OF CONFUSION. HAVING SPOKEN WORDS IS CHALLENGING. SOMETIMES THESE WORDS ARE RELIABLE BUT OFTEN THEY ARE NOT. I SAY THINGS THAT I DO NOT MEAN TO BUT I AM NOT ABLE TO STOP MY MOTOR.

SINCE NOT EVERYTHING I SAY IS UNREALIABLE, ONE WAY TO RECOGNIZE IF UNRELIABLE IS TO NOTICE MY SPEECH PATTERN. LISTEN.

EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT SO I CAN’T SPEAK FOR EVERY UNRELIABLE TALKER, BUT I TEND TO SAY MY FAST PACED TALKING IS UNRELIABLE.

ANOTHER SIGN IT’S UNRELIABLE IS IF I SEEM LIKE I MUST GET A CERTAIN RESPONSE OR WON’T CALM DOWN.

FOR ME, MY IDEAS ARE STRUNG TOGETHER IN AN EVERFLOWING WAVE OF THOUGHT. AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT THE THOUGHT MIGHT SLIP OUT OF MY MOUTH. LOTS OF THESE THOUGHTS ARE BACKGROUND NOISE, NOT MY PRIMARY THOUGHT.   THIS IS CONFUSING FOR MANY AND HAS LEAD MANY TO ASSUME, FALSELY, I MIGHT ADD, THAT IS MY WAY OF COMMUNICATING RELIABLY.

I’M CONSTANTLY ASKING MYSELF WHY THE LITTLE SCRIPTS I HAVE ALWAYS MAKE IT OUT, BUT MY HUGE INTERESTING IDEAS STAY IN MY HEAD. THAT IS MANY PEOPLES QUESTION.

EACH DAY HIDDEN INSIDE ME ARE THINKING THOUGHTS THAT I CANNOT CONTROL. MAKING THESE WORDS STOP IS NOT EASY. MINDING THESE (background) THOUGHTS TAKES HALF OF MY BRAIN, LEAVING LITTLE SPACE FOR HARD PROBLEMS.

FAMILY TIME

STAYING WITH LOVED ONES IS REWARDING AND SO HARD TOO. I WANT TO BE AROUND THEM, BUT I NEED SPACE TO STAY REGULATED.

HAVING MY RELATIVES STAY WITH ME AT MY HOUSE IS EASIER.

REALLY I WANT THEM TO MAKE TIME TO THINK ON THE WAY I TALK. I TALK EVEN WHEN THEY NOTICE I SAY STUPID THINGS. SINCE I USE THE LETTER BOARDS I WANT THEM TO IGNORE VERBAL VOMIT.

READY FOR THEM TO MAKE EFFORT TO LEARN MORE ABOUT MY COMMUNICATION. LETTER BOARDS HAVE MADE WAY FOR AUTISTICS LIKE ME TO SAY OUR TRUE THOUGHTS.

HARD ON ME NOT BEING ABLE TO TALK WITH THE ONES I LIKE.

STARTING IS NOT HARD. PLEASE MAKE SOME EMOTIONAL READING LIKE BLOG OF IDO ( Ido in Autismland ), GRACIELA ( Dare to Listen) AND JORDYN ( Jordyn’s Rocky Journey ) PART OF LEARNING.

STAY IN TOUCH.

Time has come

Some people view autistics as not reliable writers.  Hear this. Autism does not impact my thinking. It does impact my ability to regulate my body.

My mission is to educate others on my thinking. Time to remember that we are all humans on one earth together.

MLK made people think differently about human rights. My goal is to make people think differently about autistics.

” I would say that we have come a long, long way in our struggle to make justice a reality for all men, but we have a long, long way to go before the problem is solved.” – Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., 1966